I wrote the following as a thank you email to a professor. I don't update this blog enough though, so I'm throwing it up here. Have fun reading someone else's mail!
It's Dead Week, and so I've already spent a couple of sleepless nights and been awake for
a few sunrises while studying and writing papers. Today as I was working on the final
paper for your class, I remembered the passages about Leopold sitting on his sand farm
with his dog and a pot of coffee, watching the sun rise, and I resolved to do the same
thing. So this morning found me in my front yard, sitting next to the fire pit, with a
cup of shade-grown organic coffee from Trader Joe's and a Mexican pastry from Santa Cruz
market, listening to the birds and watching the sun rise.
It's really true, what Leopold said, about how you can hear the individual birds sounding
off before the sun rises, and while the sky is still grey. Then the chorus gets
increasingly complicated and it gets harder to pick out the individual bird voices, but
the overall volume increases until there's a whole symphony of birds greeting the
sunrise. Unfortunately, this symphony is foreign to me - I can recognize the sounds of
viola, violin, flute, or clarinet, but I can't identify any of the musicians in the Isla
Vista morning chorus. I feel as an environmental studies student here at UCSB, spending
four years in this community, I should learn to identify at least one of these players
before I go. So I guess this summer will find me outside the firepit at dawn with my
"Birds of North America" handbook.
There's one bird in particular that I want to identify. It's been my own personal demon
the whole school year. I call it "the squeaky thing." It sounds remarkably like a doggie
squeaky toy, and I always hear it very late at night. I don't know if it starts at 3am or
2 or 4, but once I hear the squeaky thing, I know that I am up too late. I've learned to
associate it with sleepless nights and insomnia or assignments I've procrastinated on.
Also, nobody else in my apartment complex seems to hear it, increasing the feeling that
it lives in the backyard to tell me specifically that I am up too late. However, this
morning, when I listened carefully to the morning chorus, I heard the squeaky thing
sounding off among the other, friendlier sounding morning birds. Hearing it as a normal
bird un-demonized the squeaky thing. It's now a bird among other birds, and as
non-hostile as any of the rest. I hope to identify it, and in doing so turn it into
something familiar and even friendly.